A New Low

I hit rock bottom at some point in the last 24 hours. It was an immensely terrifying place to find myself. I never expected to reach this particular low. Alas, here I am. The past few months have been a blur. I look in the mirror and have no idea who is staring back at […]

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What a night…

I often feeling unsettled by the things that transpire within my own mind. A haunting reminder of the sheer force of strength and will needed to remain in control of a seemingly infinite and unpredictable hub of thought, feeling and perhaps even spirituality. My dreams last night left me shaken when I awoke this morning. […]

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Transformation in Motion

I can feel it again. A changing within me. Not something new but rather a continuation of evolution that had already begun but had been halted by the past many weeks. Fear somehow slipped back into my life unnoticed as I began to spiral downward. I was completely caught off guard. I had no resolve. […]

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Walking on Water

I feel like I can stay above the surface as long as I keep my eyes focused on my objective but the moment I look at the storm surrounding me, I begin to sink. A famous story and now one I’m seeing first hand in relevance to my own life. I’ve tried so hard lately […]

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My head is spinning

Another night of no sleep. *sigh* I suppose I should be grateful that I’m at round three of trying to quit smoking. This is my third attempt in the last month. I usually make it 3 or 4 days before slipping back. Hopefully that won’t be the case this time. It’s just become so mentally, […]

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A Bold Step Forward

Today marks the first day of the rest of my life. It’s mildly terrifying. I’m filled with both a focused optimism and a fair amount of alarming doubt. Regardless, I’m here now in this situation for what it is and every thought, feeling and decision is going to make or break me. Have you ever […]

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Was it real?

I’m not sure if it was real. I remember it clear as day. But being the last one here – was it all a dream? The sea of people. The mesh of sound. Everyone was here. Everyone was there. We were young. Really young. Just entering the world for the first time. Like being born […]

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The Pain of Change

Last night was maddening. Lying in my bed, tossing and turning from the time I laid down until the time I got up. There were small pockets of sleep but the recurring nightmares jolted me awake frequently. If my eyes weren’t shutting on their own from sleep deprivation I would’ve been more inclined to just […]

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New track!

Hey everyone, So I recorded a new video of my latest song called “Shadows” and threw it on YouTube. It’s a little different then most of my other stuff but I think it turned out okay. Let me know your thoughts! Hope you dig it! In other news, there really isn’t a whole lot I […]

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Losing my footing

I’ve come so far in the last couple months and especially in these last 30 days, I don’t even know where to begin. I quit smoking cold turkey which is nothing short of miracle. I’ve been going to the gym and running regularly for almost six weeks now. I’ve been making more money at work […]

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