June 21, 2006

so perhaps I may keep xanga a little longer then I had orignally planned.

well were approaching the end of this school year, and sadly my last year. you don’t hear to many people complain about grading and I never did, until a few months ago. I guess I just realized how much I’m going to miss all these people that I’ve grown up with for years and am now, NOT going to see everyday like I always did. I feel almost as if I took them for granted for all these years, and now its to late, I can’t go back and change anything, I just have to accept what is happening and move on with it.

oh man there are so many memories from HCS. from grade 2 until grade 12, I can’t even begin to imagine how long it would take me to review all of them. student council retreats, birthday parties, high school drama, love, hate, relationships…the list goes on…forever.

everything that mattered before is slowly loosing its importance in my life. all these things that had such a grip on my life, things that just wouldn’t let me move on with anything…they are slowly leaving and I’m feeling better.

I cant talk about it anymore, because its something that seems like its “off limits” now or something unbelievabley strange like that. I think there will always be a part of me thats thankful that it all happened and part of me that wishes I had never turned around the one day. either way, it’s something that will stick with me for a long time yet I’m sure.

I’ve been moping around in this depressive state for the last few months now. just the whole thought of grading seemed like some pathetic tragety I had to undergo in order to advance into what they call “real life”. I have so many regrets, so many things I wanted to do and will now never get the chance to do them. I guess I should just be thankful for what I have to take with me into life.

sometimes I just miss the old days, where everything seemed to be so much easier, carefree or normal maybe? even if it really wasn’t, at least it felt that way. I dont know what the word is. all I know is there used to be a time where things seemed so right.

oh but what a deceptive fairy tale we live in.

I like ranting like this, I think I’ll do it more often, even if no one reads this, at least I’ll get a chance to be emo every once and awhile and express my thoughts and feelings on an online journey for your viewing pleasure. anyways I’ll see all you kids at morning star next year.

kids, haha….yes your nothing but mindless children mwahaha.

thought I was gone for good eh? think again. I’ll never be gone, I own that school. wERD. haha?


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    June 21, 2006

    you’re darn right you do. and me too. we used to be the kings of that school.

    we’ll be there next year, rockin it up like it’s 1985…or theres a sale on lotion day… or something.

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    June 21, 2006

    Dude, you’re always welcome back here. Seriously I’ll get bored without you to ramble on about music and babes with.

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    June 21, 2006

    we’re all gonna miss you and the other grads at the school. be sure to come by and visit!

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    June 21, 2006

    kids eh.. hmm ill win if we argure about that one..

    anyway not looking forward to you not being here but i will surive…

    First I was afraid
    I was petrified
    Kept thinking I could never live
    without you by my side
    But I spent so many nights
    thinking how you did me wrong
    I grew strong
    I learned how to carry on
    and so you’re back
    from outer space
    I just walked in to find you here
    with that sad look upon your face
    I should have changed my stupid lock
    I should have made you leave your key
    If I had known for just one second
    you’d be back to bother me

    Go on now go walk out the door
    just turn around now
    ’cause you’re not welcome anymore
    weren’t you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
    you think I’d crumble
    you think I’d lay down and die
    Oh no, not I
    I will survive
    as long as i know how to love
    I know I will stay alive
    I’ve got all my life to live
    I’ve got all my love to give
    and I’ll survive
    I will survive

    It took all the strength I had
    not to fall apart
    kept trying hard to mend
    the pieces of my broken heart
    and I spent oh so many nights
    just feeling sorry for myself
    I used to cry
    Now I hold my head up high
    and you see me
    somebody new
    I’m not that chained up little person
    still in love with you
    and so you felt like dropping in
    and just expect me to be free
    now I’m saving all my loving
    for someone who’s loving me

    heheh anyway i love you

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    June 23, 2006

    Haha. Ashley’s so funny. I love that song.

    But aside from that…

    Yeah, buddy. Yeah.

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    June 23, 2006

    You’re not skipping my class.
    I’m skipping yours.
    Howdya like them apples.

    Glad to see your still kicking around on xanga.
    Gives me something to read.
    Aside from the grade 8’s terribly done homework.

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    June 23, 2006

    yay youre keeping it…it’s impossible to leave xanga..and i’m not even joking, it’s addictive :]

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    June 23, 2006

    even though you never comment me back, i still will read your posts and comment you.
    i hope after you graduate it will be a great experience and that you keep in touch with everyone.


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    June 28, 2006

    you people and your nerdy xanga sites…

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    June 28, 2006

    lol woot. lol I like your site. tee hee

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    July 2, 2006

    haha mr tonn is random..howdya like them apples..i was laughing out loud..no joking..

    still advertising for you brando

    you may have a potential fan already.

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    July 5, 2006

    you have many fans already