January 3, 2005

Well my mom started using cocaine again so she is going back into drug rehab for the next year or two. The ministry is putting my little brother, my little sister and myself in foster homes for the next couple of years. I am currently at home right now packing up my house because we have to be outta here in a few days.

I have to give my dog to the SPCA where they will then put her down. I have to give up my house and go live with someone I dont even know until the day I turn 18 and can live out on my own. I have to give up my family for the stupid choices that someone else made. I have to suffer for something I didnt even do.

The ministry gets to pick what school I go to so chances are they will pull me out of HCS. I’m trying to figure out why this is happening…again.

Guys I need help. I dont know if I can make it on my own like this. I know God is there and I know that all of this is happening for a reason, I just dont know what it is…


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January 6, 2005

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    January 3, 2005

    aww brandon thats harsh… but i know youll make it, youre strong… and God will always be there and all of your friends will be there for you and id be there for you too if you ever needed anything or wanted to talk… and i know theres lots of other people willing to do that too! and after you get through this it will have made a stronger person…

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    January 3, 2005

    hey brandon, you don’t have to do it alone! you’re right God is here and he works everything out for the good of those who love him so hang onto him…if nothing else, hang onto God, he’ll get you through. there are tons of people that I’m sure can help you and your siblings, we just have to start spreading the word. Bless yah man, i’ll be praying for you!

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    January 3, 2005

    Just stay strong brandon…as much as u can..ur little brother and sister i’m sure need u to be. Ur right this has happened for a reason and one day whenever it might be u’ll find out. My advice is to be a light through this situation. U can really affect some ppl’s lives from how u act through this situation. I’ll be praying for u.

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    January 3, 2005

    Brandon!..I’ll be praying for you..call me anytime if you need to talk..anytime at all..im always here..i really want to see you so we can talk..  please call me?!..

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    January 3, 2005

    I have no idea what to say…

    I’m… sorry? really really really sorry…

    hate to disagree, but I wouldn’t say everything happens for a reason… more like bad things happen… and if you stick with God… which can be pretty hard, but if you do… he works everything bad that shouldn’t have happened out to help you and work for your good in the end. sometimes hard stuff  happens for a reason but I would say… in my opinion which could be wrong but i would say… this is a bad thing that happened that God will still work for good in time.. not like He planned it… “it is not His will that any one of these should suffer”…

    just remember… stick through this and you will be so strong and have an incredible story once youre through it all.. and if you really work at staying close to God and dont let it pull you away from him you can get so incredibly close to Him through all this… in ways people with easy lives often never do…

    if in ANY way at all i can help just let  me know and i will

    we’re all your brothers and sisters brandon and we love you

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    January 3, 2005

    Brandon everyone is telling you that God will be there for you and that he will help you through this…….you probably think that is bull……well i sure would if that happened to me….i really respect you for still sticking with God even though tough times come about……how do you do it…..Ill keep praying for you, for Jesus Christs healing in your family…you dont deserve this Brandon……

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    January 3, 2005

    brandon. i dont even know what to say. thats something no one should have to go through. if you need anything at all feel free to ask. ill help in any way i can. my family also says that if you and your family need anything we’ll do all we can. we have a room downstairs in my house if you need anywhere to stay. we’ll be praying for you man. your awesome. you inspire me that your still coming to God even though you’re being faced with such a difficult situation. much love.

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    January 4, 2005

    another option… our family room is barely used these days… it has a comfortable fouton bedish thing and the family says youre welcome to crash here for a few days if you need to. 🙂 ttyl

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    January 4, 2005

    brandon i am here for you…you know that you are my brothers best friend therefore you are my brother! so i am here for you and praying for you and stay strong mo… its sucks but you can get thro this! so ya talk to me when you can ttyl

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    January 4, 2005

    I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! dude your like my brother….man come over to my house whenever you want! im serious…my house is your house…i love you as a brother man. I know you cant see why this is happening..but it has a reason…trust in GOD!!! dont give up…theres still hope…hmm i think i know that person that wrote that song. man its ok….we are here for you. hopefully you can stay in hcs…pull the “its my heritage and my religion i NEED to go there” card…love you man. dont loose hope.

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    January 4, 2005

    Brandon…hmm i thought i would start off saying your name like everyone else…anyways i am so sorry about all of this..even though you know i said this allready tonight at your house and today…I love you and am so glad you are my best friend and thank God for you, your awesome, and the way your dealing with it like when the Fens stopped by tonight, i could see how mature you actually are and how your already a grown up…(Mr. Counseller)wink ha….whatever happens i know you can do whatever ok? dont worry about the living situations i know they will all work out…my mom has to think about it and all, but im pretty sure it will work out and the ministry will give you more freedom and let you stay here or whatever…anyways yeah love ya i will see you tommorow after school okay? we will get packed and work hard, just sleep tonight and yeah…ok it WILL all work out…prayin for you Brando…

                                  it’s me…Mr. Mastermind…haha when you read this all, you were probaly singing it all out loud again haha! ok i will stop…smile! foo.

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    January 4, 2005

    im not going to give you the same ol story that i know you hate.  im not going to say the same things.  i know you get tired of hearing them, even if they are nice things.  i talked to you today, and we confirmed, that you dont want anyones pity, or sympathy.  but…i will give you emphathy. 
      lauren, ill have to disagree with what your saying.  God plans everything.  he KNOWS everything.  how could he not plan for something to happen.  he doesn’t want people to suffer yes, but he will allow it for the lessons to be learnt by people.
    I do know this kid.  I love you.  your my bud.  ill probably be asking you to be my best man at my wedding in the future.  thats how much you mean to me.  let me give you some encouragement.  And please, read on.   God will test you, give you trials and tribulations…and allow things into your life.  Now, right off the bat we can say he sure has allowed a hell of a lot more than he allows into some peoples lives.  But that means something.  It means that if you pass those tests, and overcome them, you’ll come out way the hell better than most people.  God will never put so much tests in your life that you will not be able to pass.  He will never give you more than you can handle.  that should give you hope, because that means that you’ll always have potential and will to be able to succeed.  And you know that God believes in you, because he wont give you more than you can handle…because he expects you to pass.  he knows you’ll pass.  I know you’ll pass.   
      Think of this as the “entry test” into your success as a musican.   once you get up this mountain…(as they say) its all downhill from here.     I know you hear this lots, but i hope it doesn’t get old.   I’ll be praying for you bud.  I love you.  And when you read this,  turn on your cellphone.  I’ve been trying to call you.  I need to talk to you about something.  But dont worry, i wont repeat anything i said in this comment.  Unless of course, you want me to heh heh. 

    big comment eh?  well..  big awesome people, deserve big awesome comments right?

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    January 4, 2005

    Brandon. I thought since everyone was putting your name at the front of there comments I would tell you what it means. Your name means sword. And I feel as though you are being sharpened by God right now, and being prepared for the battle. The war is hard. And  certain parts of you get cut. They bleed. You lose things you love and hold dear. But the end of it will be like no other end. You will triumph over all of this. And God will be there when you even don’t want him to be. (who knew prophecieing over someone on xanga)

    Life. I’m just like the rest of them! I have no idea what to say to this. And I don’t know what God is saying to this. Yes everything does happen for a reason. THAT IS ALL I KNOW. And I know that when situations happen like this you give up almost. You come to the point of break down. And don’t ever want to leave it. I pray with everything I can pray with that God will give you strength! Victor is right you don’t need sympathy or peoples pity. Because you can’t do anything about it. This is life right. This is the end times this is when God is preparing us for the end, this is what war is! Your in it I know I sure the hell am. And it’s hard. I’ve been through the hard times. Going through the hard times. But the other side is well worth it. I know we are not the best of friends. I would like to be a friend though. To you or to your sister. If you ever need someone to chear Amber up. Or to take her out or to give her a good day. I would absoultly love too. I give you my word and my number to call and yes I will drop anything to give Amber a good day. 469-3662 (cell) or (home) 717-0007. I don’t want this to be another comment. But I pray that you really take into concideration what is here. We all love you.


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    January 4, 2005

    just keep having faith that God will guide you through.

    if God brings you to it, he will bring you through it.

    take care.

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    January 4, 2005

    hey you…. even thoe we havent been able to talk that much, i just want you to know that i’m always here too if u need anything too… and but the looks of things you have alot of people backing that up! I will be prayin for you and your family! Stay strong, through all of these things you will grow stronger and have an awesome testominy when all of theis is over! But just dont forget that you have so many people here for you that love and care for u sooo much! God Bless!

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    January 4, 2005

    i dont really know you, but i’ll be thinkin and praying for you!

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    January 5, 2005

    I will pray so much for you guys. Real prayer, not the fake-o “oh yeah and bless them too” but the real thing. I really hope that things will get better. God bless you guys…

    Love you and praying for you,

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    January 5, 2005

    o my goodness i fell the same way since i am to in foster home but i got to pick what school i wanted to go to and ya it sucks big time and theres nothing we can do about it but atleast your almsot 18 i have to be in there till im 19 and im only 14 and ive been in one since i was 1

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    January 6, 2005

    im so friggin jealous that you shook hilary duffs hand! dont wash that hand, you hear me?
    until we meet again, you shake my hand with that hand. and ill give you a big hug
    you are in my prayers